When this past Sunday rolled around, I had been praying specifically over a few events that had occurred. I was needing direction in both my responses and even in how I reconciled it in my own brain, which often over-thinks and sometimes mis-perceives. As I prayed I felt God bring up a conversation I have had with Him for a few years.
“Take a break from social media. Why not? You can do it very easily…I will show you how.” And so He did!
Now you need to know that I have been so jealous of others, who are disconnected from social media. I mean really jealous. Then a while back John Piper took a year off. And I thought, “Hmm, I could do that.”
The nature of my work is driven by social media–writing and web design. Even so, I am bone weary. I want to have a real conversation with a person. I want to get back to letter writing. I want to be accessible at all times to friends and family, but limit the accessibility for business. Truly I love what I do. I do. But I’m a wife and mom and friend and so many other things. My work can wait.
But often it finds me.
I knew last week that I was overloaded and inundated and choosing poorly when our 15 year old son began talking to me about things at school. I don’t know that I made eye contact or even listened very well. Just being honest…
I have three years left with him at home. And he wants to talk with me! What is wrong with me?? I thought. Listen, Girl. Listen and stop being productive. You cannot steal back this moment.
This is just one of the reasons why I’m taking a break for a whole year. There are many more. But this is the precipice upon which the decision came to a break point.
What does it feel like to be disconnecting? It feels like breathing. It feels good.
Thank you, Jesus for the way you lead us…through the good times and through the hard, you are always with us and FOR us. May this time not only bring you honor and glory, but may it STEAL BACK life for my sake and my family’s sake, too. May this encourage one person to walk closer to You, to follow harder after you and to SAY YES to the thing nagging at their own heart. May they do that this very day. Amen