Even when there are signs, giving warning of what’s coming up ahead…
Even when they tell you the safest speed to go…
Even when your mind KNOWS it, confirms it…
Sometimes a heart won’t know what it is til you experience it. It is then that the “knowing in your knower” really occurs–a rubber meets road time. It is also a time of proving and proof.
Does God really mean what He says?
Is He really writing this story?
Is He good?
‘Cause from the outside, it truly looks pretty messy. It is the uncut version–non staged and unprepped. It looks a lot like our life right now.
Over a month ago, we lost Chris’ Daddy, Paul. We knew that it was coming. We didn’t know when or how, we just knew. And God was truly gracious in the unfolding of it. He drove MaryAnn to Arkansas and died the next morning. It was like a beautiful chariot of God’s grace to MaryAnn and to our hearts. The funeral was that Wednesday, and my Chris spoke…he spoke of the truly beautiful relationship he shared with his Daddy. It was one for the books, written by God Himself. It was a set-apart special relationship. Apart from MaryAnn, I believe Chris was his Daddy’s best friend. And the same is true, vice versa. It is fitting that Paul was the best man in our wedding. To Chris, he was the best man he ever knew. Not perfect, but best.
By Friday of that week, Chris knew of a meeting going on at his work, regarding their future and in response to a downturn. At the meeting, the die was cast. Two and a half weeks later, Chris and two others were let go. Chris was given an exceptional letter of recommendation. He was given a beautiful provision for our family–truly unlike we have ever seen.
Chris said it himself, “Well, it’s that time of year again…” It was a joke, as he alone is capable of delivering at such a time. For we have been here eight times before in our 26 years of marriage. And we know…we know that God is faithful and able and carrying us along.
But again, we don’t know how or when, we just know. We know that this will turn out very well.
And we invite you into our story, as best as I can convey it. I have a few stories to tell so far. But for today, this alone is my offering to you all.
Sometimes a bend in the road will come. And at the bend, no matter how you travel or at what speed, God Himself wraps you up in His beautiful, glorious enough-ness. I feel this moment, both held in His hand and covered by His hand. But I also am not at a place where I’m much fun at parties. So it is a time of stillness, reflection, prayer and hope.
It will again be one for the books, written by God Himself. And that….because we ask Him to.
For we know and rely on the love He has for us…and for you, too, friends…for you, too.