Life this morning looks a lot like grace upon grace to me. Our kids are growing in grace, I see it everyday in the little things and big things they say and do.
Dailyness is not rote, but savored. Time stills….long enough for me to take time to write here again. To perhaps unpack a bit of what the past two years have wrought in my life and brought forth some beautiful things and some not so beautiful, as well.
A month from today two years ago, it would be my Chris’ last day of work in Colorado. And the next morning, while it was still dark…wow I could expound on that one! It would be still dark (figuratively) for many months to come!…anyway, it was early in the morning, before the sun came up, and we were strapping appliances to racks on the back of our vehicles. I would stare at those appliances the whole trip to Texas, nearly 22 hours later, wishing I had at least written something cheerful on the appliances to read like, “Don’t drive too close to me. I’m loaded down with stuff. Have a nice day!”. It was the longest day of my life. The struggle to keep my eyes open, mixed with pure exhaustion and anticipation of what would come, left me worn to the bone.
Last week at this very time, all of my family were trucking along in two vehicles, a new/old suburban and the biggest Uhaul you could drive, somewhere between Amarillo and Wichita Falls, Texas, with all of the remaining belongings we left behind two years ago. Then the Uhaul broke down on the side of the road. I never in a thousand years would have thought the journey would have unfolded in such an ungainly way. It smacks of a story gone awry. We had stepped out in faith, but it didn’t look very blessed by God….not unless you looked beyond the outward appearance. It looked like pure foolishness.
To top it all off, we experienced a week that was filled with both great difficulties and greater blessings, while in Colorado. It was the cherry on top and the way out of the darkness for me, personally. I will tell more about it all soon, but for now…this day…I wanted to focus on one thing that comes to mind.
Where are you living?
Are you making your home in a place of could-have-beens, should-have-dones or what-is-to-comes?
Are you living your own life or finding the stories of others more compelling, so that you live in social media land and neglect your own in-real-life people?
Or are you caught up in the latest news, forecasting that we are all headed for disaster?
Are you dwelling on future events that have not even happened, yet?
Is life so heavy, you hide yourself in distractions and entertainment–anything to make this heavy life disappear from view?
Or are you stuck in how your story has gone, and perhaps even gone off-course for months, even years?
Well I am inviting you into something new today. It is something that is hard for me, as I sway between being a task-oriented and sit-at-Jesus’-feet kind of girl. I’m inviting you to change how you see your life and to better monitor what you allow into your heart and mind, so that the Lord may speak over you, sing over you, and you may know His rest in the midst of challenges and hardships.
Today I invite you to breathe in and out this prayer with me, “Lord, help me to see where I’m living today. And to notice your activity all around me. Wake me up to life today, so that I may walk (and run) this course by looking to none other than You, as my map and my guide. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for the stillness I feel in Your Presence. Equip me for Your next in my life. Help me not to be so much reactive and self-focused that I get off-track. But also help me not to take on burdens that you never meant for me to carry. And Lord? Above all, I ask for you to help me better filter my thoughts, where my mind often wanders, and to take them captive and make them obedient to you, Jesus, so that I may live in a place of freedom and effectiveness. May You get all the glory! In Jesus’ Name. Amen.”
Come back every Friday, as I share more of our story…and hopefully spur you on to living yours out purposefully and with hope!