Discerning the voice of God is hard sometimes. Lately, it has been eerily silent ’round here. I know He is always at work. I know that we are ever before Him. I know that He is faithful and that He is good. I know that He loves me; He loves my family. We are the apple of His eye. All this I know from experience–and from His Word, the work of Jesus’ death and resurrection to reconcile me and save me, I know it. And I know it in the peace that reigns in my heart.
This journey has been a hard one, in that there are a lot of places still, where we do not have precise answers. While we are fully able to do work, we have mostly been still before the Lord. There comes a time when we need to say, ok, we must step back into the fray of the workforce and of real life. And that time is now.
We have been given a deadline of November 1 to show a job or our rental will be put back on the market–even though we have faithfully paid and been honest and good tenants. The alternative was to pay THREE month’s rent. And we just do not have that. But we do have enough for November and to live on our budget through November.
So this morning, Chris and I met together to pray. We need wisdom, and we have choices to make. So we laid it all out before the Lord. He knows it, but in prayer, we are committing it to Him–entrusting ourselves.
What I have taken away is this–God will take care of us. And He knows.
I have been praying this verse over our family: “Let your work be shown to your servants, and your glorious power to their children. Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us, and establish the work of our hands upon us; yes, establish the work of our hands.” Psalm 90:16-17 ESV
We want to know what work the Lord has for us. And we need to join Him in that work. TODAY.
God has been faithful to provide a website for me to do during the past couple of weeks. I have worked hard and was paid well. Web design work is not something I thought I would continue in. But here is what happened. Someone contacted me. I prayed and said yes. And it came that easily.
So from that, I can presume that God can bring ALL work to us in this way. I do not, however, presume that He WILL. I just know He can. So that has been our modus operandi. Chris has applied for every job within a fifty mile radius that fits his experience and education. We have told everyone, who will listen, about our story. So we have been faithful in our part here, I think.
But we are also aware that we could (and could have been already) taken any job that we could find. But we both prayed about it, continually, and have felt like we are to be still and wait. And so we have.
On Monday, after the deadline passes, we will both pursue any job that we can find, so that when the end of November comes, we have provision for our family and can continue to stay on our family’s budget. And this rental may very well be out of our hands. And we may need to find another place to stay. I really don’t know. But this I do know, we can trust that God is taking care of us. We can trust that He is directing our steps and will guide us for each one.
Another premise and verse I rest upon is this (and this verse is for all those perfectionists out there, trying to live their lives so very perfectly):
If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself. 2 Timothy 2:13 ESV
For you see, we do not think we have done this perfectly. No. And a few can attest to that fact. But we have humbly sought the Lord. We have humbly asked Him for guidance. And we have found that the Lord has not only guided, but provided every step of the way for this journey. It has not been comfortable, which is often the mark of walking in a narrow way.
In the silences, I may not hear the Lord tell me what to do or even what He is doing, but I do hear Him speak thus:
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9b NLT
He has given us daily what we have needed and MORE–be it encouragement, prayer, a rose from a friend or a porterhouse steak even. Sometimes, we forget that He is a good Father. And He gives lavishly, abundantly, exceedingly. That is not to say that we are looking for worldly wealth, as if that symbolized God’s care. No. And absolutely not. But He does give good things to us.
So now, as I close today, I can say in my heart that even in the silences, I know that this ends well. Also I have watched Him hold a house that we want to buy ALL SUMMER LONG. It is still waiting for us. I believe that it is ours. But I cannot prove it.
He will. In His time. Even if that time is AFTER the deadline for the rental. Things might get really exciting around here….but we are hanging on to the Lord Jesus’ hand with all that we are.
Thanks for praying, friends. For listening…