When God began this journey in March of 2013 with the three pictures of Chris, Noah and the Texas A&M emblem, I had no idea…
Did you know that I love roller coasters? I do! I even got on the Flash Back at Six Flags, when I could have easily begged off as being too old for these things now. It went forward in a loopty-loop and then went backwards on the same one. That means I went backwards and upside down on the loopty-loop. And I did not hurl at the end of it. I whooped and hollered! It was exhilarating!
But this journey, this journey has gone way beyond the loopty-loops and backwards.
It has turned me inside out in a thousand ways. For the fear of the unknown, the risk of moving without a job, the hugeness of all that God would need to do….well, that is the setup for one very exhausted child of God. And we are six very exhausted children.
Did you know that I DO NOT LOVE Ferris Wheels? One, they are going nowhere. They are boring in that you just do the same thing over and over and over. It is a yawner to me. And two, I got stuck at the top on one once. I truly don’t remember who I was with at the time, I just remember the fear of being stuck and that, at the very top. I remember craning my neck to the person operating it, trying not to sway the seat too much. And they began to open a box and do stuff with things. That is the extent of my mechanical understanding. But the FEAR in me….oh. It rose up! I wanted down. And I wanted down NOW. Obviously, I made it…and I didn’t have to climb down, which if you know me at all, you know I could not have safely climbed down. I am terrible at both climbing and down. It’s a fact.
Then this journey…oh this journey! God has brought us here.
We are in College Station. God provided a rental home. We could not buy a home without a job (which is good, considering). The kids started school on time. We have an income until mid-October. God has gracefully helped us navigate paying doubly for things in two places and travel and moving some of our stuff. We’re nearly to the finish line. Exhilarated! We made it!
Then the second job interview unfolded this past week. We were sure that it would be a simple next step. I felt confident that this was his job. And truly, it still may be. But the meeting went in an unexpected way…no, we do not have a spot for you, yet. We may at some point in the future. Even this Friday, we have another proposal out for another job. But even then, you will interview with a team and then take a test…
Well, that left me spinning. I was left (remember, I am exhausted) completely knocked off my feet in fear. We are stuck, I thought. Perhaps we should load the u-haul and head back to Colorado.
For the known feels somehow safer than this unknown. I want down. I want down right now!
Stuck at the top of the ferris wheel…beginning to send out more resumes and rather begin again. We have a limited time, where financially we are covered. And that time clock, it is ticking. I have reeled for about three days. Chris and the kids, too, feel afraid and concerned. Are we in trouble? Will this end well?
It all is a journey that, having known these facts of our now back then, I might not have signed up for. Truly.
And here is where I take my exhausted self and do the ONE thing I know to do, as Jesus gently says to me, “Holly, get to the Word. Get to my feet right now. And praise Me. For what you do not see right now, I have in my Hand. It is for Glory. It matters.”
The fact of the matter is this, we do not know exactly how this will all unfold. We do not know. But one thing I do know, God has been making a way the whole time. He has provided. He has covered us in peace and grace and ability. Our home in Colorado is about to close. We are doing the final things for that. And Chris found another place to apply that he is interested in. He actually sent a cold resume to them on Friday afternoon (that means they aren’t looking for someone to hire). That is really how Chris got his first real job after graduation–a cold resume and a MIGHTY GOD, who ably controls the waterways for us.
He did not bring us this far to drop us. He did not!
And we are all growing in the Lord and closer to one another. In this day and time, we need to be people, who are willing to take risks and follow God wherever He leads. As my friend reminded me, His Name is at stake here. He WILL GET the glory and praise.
But until then, we keep walking, keep trusting, keep peace.
By returning to the Word of God over and over again. It is our life and breath, as we are reminded of what God’s promises are…for they are all YES and AMEN.
“For no matter how many promises God has made, they are ‘Yes’ in Christ. And so through him the ‘Amen’ is spoken by us to the glory of God.” 2 Corinthians 1:20 NIV
So my question for you today is this, friends and family…what and where is God calling YOU? Are you willing to get on-board with Jesus for His next best thing for your life? Well, time is short. DO IT. I’m praying for you. You see, I’m not just pouring out my heart here to share deep things for any other reason than to spur you on in Jesus. That is my one and only motivation. Keep going, brothers and sisters. IT MATTERS!