It’s been a year off of social media, and I have come to realize so much about myself, my friends, my priorities, and my focus.
The fact is that some friends will stick around the whole time and find ways to stay in touch. Some friends will fall away. Some will realize at some point that they missed you–and will go to great lengths to reconnect. Some will never reciprocate friendship, even if you keep trying to reach out.
It used to feel like rejection. Now it just feels like a nudge from God to just move on already. And I have.
Sometimes I reach out again, later down the road, as God prompts my heart. I never give up on people, really. And God uses me, whether I feel received or reciprocated or not. He just does.
So it is a good place for me. To love others out of a place and position of pouring out–whether or not it is ever a two way street.
Isn’t that what Jesus calls us to do? Love our enemies. Love those who seem to not give a flip. Love them anyway.
Another thing I have learned this year is to walk on from those, who would harm me, who wish to bring me pain. I had made some beginning steps in the past several years. But this past year I have walked beyond the point of going back. It has been easier without social media in this realm, especially. It removed the game pieces from play.
It is not cowardly to walk away from people, who want to manipulate you. It is brave.
This year I have been brave. And my other healthy relationships are a testimony to the fact that my bravery has made me healthy and wholly able to walk in the calling Jesus has placed on my life.
He holds my hand every step of the way!
Priority-wise, this year has had its ups and downs. Nature abhors a vacuum. If you do not fill up the space, left by no longer spending time on social media, and without intention, the space will get filled with other unessentials – – hours playing games on my phone or even working more hours than I should. Or working during the wrong time of day and missing my family.
Sometimes my priorities have been wonderfully perfect–homeschooling our Sydney for seven months, taking time for developing friendships–old and new, planning wonderful times with our family and working hard so we could pay for those times.
So as I look forward to another year off of social media (though you can still find me playing around on pinterest and taking pictures on instagram), I anticipate a few things.
1. Better health.
2. Stronger friendships.
3. A return to spending a lot more hours in scripture and prayer.
4. A move of the Spirit in myself and my family.
Friday, our Sydney returns to school. It is a miracle. Her reading is so much improved! Please pray for her. She is excited and a bit scared, too.
Just this week, I got my first new web business since last March. I have done some upkeep and reworking for regular customers. But God has been so amazing in this… I had constant business (more than I could handle!) up until last March. Then we began homeschooling and it completely came to halt. With this week and Sydney returning to school, I am amazed that God would send a new customer. It is just like my God. He held back the tide… And good things happened.
I guess that’s really all. It is good to be alive on this planet.. In this day and time. It is good to walk out God’s calling with Jesus right at our sides. It is good to love, yes and especially those who may never love me back. It is good to walk on from relationships that were poisonous to my soul. It is good. And I Praise Him for it.
I will come back soon with pictures from our fall trip last weekend. Right now I’m typing this on my cell. Yes, my cell. Yes, 679 words long. And I don’t feel like adding more than one picture or editing before I hit publish. 🙂 freedom is a good thing.
Enjoy this taste of Colorado fall, y’all!