Before I continue the story, I have another story…Tuesday evening my Chris was at his work computer that lives here at home (for those snowy days when he works from home), and our daughter Kylie had logged into her facebook on his computer. So he logged out and went to log into his account–or so he thought. But no! He logged into MY account and reactivated it. Later that evening I was checking on Kylie’s facebook on my computer (yay! the new one! with a touch screen! I love it!!!) using Chris’ account. And I saw my picture in a friends’ list. I clicked on it–so surprised! And there was my account ending on September 30, 2013. What to do? What to do? I left a message to everyone, telling what happened.
And I prayed overnight about it. I felt God say, do what you want–everything is permissible, but not always beneficial. But I also felt God prompt me to share this next story with everyone there, who may not know I have a blog and who might need encouragement on the road they may be on. So I caved. I did what I said I would not do. Ah, human nature! But the readership here on ye olde blog went from 80 to about 350…so mybe God really IS telling this story in a wider circle and for a purpose!
Now honestly, the next day, I saw that you can now actually DELETE the account. And I truly wish that I had been able to do that a year ago (and not just deactivate it). But then I also felt a tinge of joy at having re-connected with so many dear ones. I feel like it is TIME to be back on Facebook now. And I asked my Chris to hold me accountable in it by asking me the hard questions. So…that is that. Now back to the story…
I went to a lonely place at the retreat–a place where for twenty minutes I could be alone with God and not only hear from Him, but I needed to know He was near. I even took a picture to mark this spot, for it would indeed be a part of the story I’m telling you.
Now twenty minutes is really not a long time. But that twenty minutes would change the course of my life and the life of my family.
I began in the Word. This year, I am reading through the Bible (as I have done for many, many years now) in the New English Translation. As I have said before, I really love it. I love how it says God has LOYAL LOVE towards us. In a time when loyalty is a rarity, I need to know that God’s love for me is unwavering and secure. And it is!
So I opened my Bible app on my phone and began to read from Deuteronomy 12:20-28, and I will highlight what stood out to me:
When the Lord your God extends your borders as he said he would do and you say, “I want to eat meat just as I please,” you may do so as you wish. 21 If the place he chooses to locate his name is too far for you, you may slaughter any of your herd and flock he has given you just as I have stipulated; you may eat them in your villages just as you wish. 22 Like you eat the gazelle or ibex, so you may eat these; the ritually impure and pure alike may eat them. 23 However, by no means eat the blood, for the blood is life itself—you must not eat the life with the meat! 24 You must not eat it! You must pour it out on the ground like water. 25 You must not eat it so that it may go well with you and your children after you; you will be doing what is right in the Lord’s sight. 26 Only the holy things and votive offerings that belong to you, you must pick up and take to the place the Lord will choose. 27 You must offer your burnt offerings, both meat and blood, on the altar of the Lord your God; the blood of your other sacrifices you must pour out on his altar while you eat the meat. 28 Pay careful attention to all these things I am commanding you so that it may always go well with you and your children after you when you do what is good and right in the sight of the Lord your God.
Now here is my context and where my brain is…I am about to partake of communion when I go back to the worship hall with the others. I am about to partake of what Jesus says, this is my blood, poured out for you, the blood of the covenant, poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. AND IT STRUCK ME! There has been a change. Old covenant–sacrifices of animals- eat the meat, don’t partake of the blood. New covenant–do this in remembrance of me. Remembrance of what? Remembrance of Jesus’ blood poured out for the sins of many. He is saying, this wine symbolizes my life. Now partake of my life. Let it be in you. Partake of it and TELL– tell many that the life is in the blood. And Jesus wants His life to be in you–lived out in and over and through you to set the captives free!
Five minutes has passed. And I am thinking upon the fact that Jesus’ life is in me. The life is in the blood!
So I thank Him. I thank Him for the switch-around in my own life. For I was on a path of destruction–and He came and intercepted my life. And I have not ever been the same.
Then I begin to pour out my heart to Him–Lord, we (our family) are stuck. We are in a place of needing to pay out so many things. Things are breaking and needing replacement. Kids need dental work….and they are growing up, needing so many things. And there is no way I could work more. I am barely keeping my head above water right now. Lord, I am sinking. Lord, I need you to come and make a difference on the pavement upon which we are walking. Lord, please help.
Another five minutes has passed, as I poured out my heart to Him. And He spoke to my heart very clearly.
A change is coming.
Then I saw something, as a slide-show, THREE pictures.
…and I will pick up from here on Monday.
Please don’t miss it. Happy and BLESSED weekend to you all. And if you will? Take time to acknowledge that God is near YOU, whether you feel it or not. Pour out your heart to Him. Let Him come and blow a fresh breath on your pavement today. I love you all. And I’m praying.